1st Week in NTU~

Despite the fact that I have 3 lesser core courses than my peers which they hate me for, it has not been the best start to the new academic year since coming back from the States. With Hall issues still pertinent at the back of my mind, and the lack of a comfortable environment to study and rest in, I am starting to wonder how I would be able survive the start of the semester. I just hope that an email from SAO would pop into my mailbox rather soon. Moreover, the recent lethargy doesn't really help much in getting focused and ready for work. At least there's the National day weekend to act as an additional buffer and hopefully the "rest" can help to rejuvenate the tired mind and soul.

Playing guitar for Sing Eng this Friday at the church's Nation Prayer Watch. During the woship practice on Tuesday, she said something in the special prayer session we had to prepare ourselves mentally and spiritually before practice that struck me quite abit. She said, "I hope that all of us are here, not because we can be here, but because we want to be here." Its been a while since I've started serving in the worship ministry. Besides the instance where I made the first move to get into the worship ministry, which was more of a "want to be" than a "can be" (I learnt most of my guitar on the job) , I never thought about "wanting to serve". In fact, with the lack of musicians in church the mindset of "can make it", especially for adhoc sessions like the prayer watch is a mindset which I have. This forced me to really think whether I really wanted to be there, really wanted to serve God and spend time with him rather than just doing someone a favour or filling in just to ensure the band is complete. Regardless, I thank him for giving me the skill and the time to be able to serve in this ministry. And it won't be a "can make it", and "want to make it" although sometimes the want may be more unconscious than the can.

Need to train man....School training is at a stand still even though school has started because of the inability to secure courts. With Cheers doubles looming in September and the selection for the 14th Asean Uni Games coming up, it is important to try to be at one's best. Because only then will he be able to answer to himself, and be accountable for his actions.

Anywayz, school is rather slack on the 1st week,but it will definitely gain speed in the weeks to come and I will have to prepare myself for yet another exciting semester, after which I will be taking another sem off from Pulau NTU, at a place yet to be decided, but will go where God calls me to go, and where I can go....