Leaving Behind~

Many talk about the feeling of being left behind, the feeling of being lost, the feeling of isolation, feeling of not having anyone there to talk to, to confide in, to laugh with. Have you ever thought of the feeling of leaving behind someone? Either to the greener pastures, or the reddish mountains(sorry of my lack of vocab) ? That feeling, is in my opinion, as torturing, as painful as the feeling of being left behind. On Monday, i learnt that i will get posted out of my current unit, 3 DSMB next Monday, to G4 army MINDEF(still pending on the outcome of my CO and S1's persuasion with G4 to keep me). First thought in my mind: I wouldn't mind to post out actually, from the amt of work im getting(very little, and im on workaholic pls), and the amt of politics my branch has. I just can't seem to cope with that. This may be a God given posting to me, to a better place? Wouldn't know yet. Second thought: I'll be leaving behind a few good men. Although my appointment does not enable me to chiong sua and be some garang pc in the field, the kind of battle that we are fighting in the admin department is also not a stroll in the park. In fact, it might be even worse, given that the battle we fight is continuous ,without air to breathe at times. The pple that have battled for me and with me during our most difficult times. Pple like Puang (not Tuang) who is always there to provide support and always worrying, at times unecessarily, but more often than not, meant good, who single handedly gao tim the bn's PDS stuff. Not to forget James, the trustworthy right handman, having a brain of Pentium Z equivalent(coming out in the year 2040), doing things at lightning speed, making the impossible possible, and never saying no to anything. Chan, James understudy, who is not undergoin artillery fire, but taking it all like a man(although James and i get some of the repercussions). My hats off to all of them. Without them, life in my present unit would certainly be dull and monotonous. Now, i'll have to leave them behind, to move on. Unbearable, but manageable.(am i contradicting myself?). G4 army, here i come.

No man gets left behind

The Beginning of the End~

Luke 21:25-26 says,
"There will be signs in the sun, moon and stars. On the earth, nations will be in anguish and perplexity at the roaring and tossing of the sea. Men will faint from terror, apprehensive of what is coming on the world for the heavenly bodies will be shaken."

Busy~
Life has been quite busy recently. To a certain extent, busy in a good way.At least im spending my time fruitfully, rather than wasting it away in front of the television or the computer. Not saying that watching tv or surfing the net is wasting time. But in fact i think watching television can be quite informative and eye opening. Especially with the wide variety of programs we have on cable television these days. Well, anyway just finished SAFSA training, had a feeling of what its like to slowly get back from scratch, from the 2 weeks of laying off from any physical activity after AHM( i was just exhausted from all the running). Going for a church 24 hour prayer renewal tonight, where my small group will be staying over in church until tomorrow 8pm! And then will be catching up with Sarah Pang, my fellow RJBT Captain. Well, she's one of the few gals that is in the same frequency as i am, and really feel comfortable working and talking with her. Haven't met up for some time, hence the meeting.

B-U-S-Y- Busy Under Satan's Yoke??

Learning Crisis~

Has anyone encountered a learning crisis? Learning crisis is(imo) the wanting to learn so many different things, but by one's own ability, only able to learn a certain amount during a fixed period of time. Recently i have this urge to learn/pick up a few things, namely computer hardware, C++ programming, traditional chinese medicine, furthering my guitar skills, ride a bike and roller blading. Suddenly felt very passionate abt learning all these things. I did some self relfection, and came up with a conclusion. Probably because in my whole teen life(probably childhood as well), i have only learnt 2 things. TO study and to play badminton. Devoted all my time on it, in my standards excelled in it.Moreover, having been trg in the army for almost 2 years now, with my brain rotting away, getting "haywired" Someone probably pressed the "Emergency button" to allow me to "wake my idea up" and get things going again.The "badminton" part of my brain is telling me to let it rest and ease a little Now, there seems to be a vacuum in my head that's crying to be filled up. The "other skills department" Its like the workers in that department have just woken up from a deep slumber, now just waitinng to get to work. Problem is, too many things to learn, too little time. Time is always the problem. At times i feel like there is too much time(the time inc pple keep sending me mails to subscribe to them), at times, too little. Hence, there must be a trade off somewhere. The economist in my brain , whois still in deep slumber, must draw the trade off graph and assist me to caculate the opportunity cost, for me to choose which activity to do, which activity to dump for later time slot, such that there will be learning optimization. If he can't help me do the maths and decide, i might have to call in the crisis management team. They're probably somewhere inside my brain..just need to find them. Crisis? Nah...

AHM was...

To start it off, i couldn't sleep at the planned time of 830 which i had the intention of the day before, as i had to wake up at 345 to be able to make it in time to report to Padang by 430. It was probably the fault of the chicken essence that i took before the sleep...dunno what else would have kept me tossing and turning in bed. Next, breakfast was...1 kitkat, 1 milkybar, 1 piece of chocolate wafer, two Jacob's Cream Crackers and 1 can of Shark's Energy drink. I later realised that that too, was a mistake. Got down to the Padang, ready to roar. Thinking that i'll warm up during the first 2 click, warm up was minimal. (Hint) Next thing i knew, by the 3rd click, i was battling a stomach pain/stitch, dunno which one issit exactly, the feeling of things coming up my throat, which somehow i managed to suppress, and pesevere on. Just Dong. 15km mark, calves started to cramp up. Now i had to battle both the stomach ache and the cramps. Had to slow down quite alot to prevent the cramps from climaxing which would produce deadly effects, for those who know me well enough.Somehow, i just kept going, and going and going. The determination to complete the race, under 2hrs 5min(so that i can get my 12 dollar registration fee refund) was just not dying, not burning out. You might say that i'm Kiam, but its a goal to meet. Moreover, this was what i have been training for. On my best days, i can definitely clock below 2hrs 5 min. But circumstances change. Situations change. So, mustering all my strength, and moderating my pace to ease the cramps and stitches, i slowly counted down. 16km.....17km....18km.....19km...20km..21 km...the boards slowly passed by. Finally, the finishing line came to sight and i just ran for it. Finishing by 1hr 55min. At the finishing line, the words in my mind was only "Wah kau, kam pua shack.."Well, to many pple out there, it might be just a slightly above average timing, but fer me, knowing all the difficulties i face, it's an achievement. An achievement worth smiling in my heart for.

"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him."
-James 1:12

Asian Satellite

The feeling of going into a tournament, not being able to perform to the fullest potential, really annoys me. Not having enough preparation, knowing that hey, i can do better than this, i can stretch this guy longer, i can last longer, i can be faster, more accurate, more deadly. I have this principle that whenever i take part in any tournament or any other things, i must have enough preparation, do the best i can in the things that i do, to excel in it. If not, i will feel quite pek chek.
Singles, Kena wack by this guy called Hendry Winarto, 3-15 10-15. Doubles, 3-15 7-15 by two Malaysians. Sincerely thought that if Weipin and I had better preparation for this (he bmt I trg for AHM), we would have won this game. But nevertheless, it was a gd experience, and i really cherish it.

Smashing~

Call me wierd, call me dumb, but well, let me choose between a weekday duty and a weekend duty, i'll take the latter. On Sunday, i did my first duty as an officer, it was fantastic. Actually, i have been secretly looking forward to this duty as i miss doing duty, especially on New Year's Eve. Daniel, my pri sch classmate and ocs mate would certainly relish the time we spend together on New Year's Eve and New Year's day in camp while others were partying their hearts out. Let me give you a rough idea of how i spent the day.

0800-1200 - Xbox
1200-1230 - lunch
1230-1500 - Xbox
1500- 1730 - Surf Net
1730-1800 - Dinner
1800 - 1900 - Security Patrol
1900- 2330- TV

Smashing ain't it? Besides the fact that i had to skip church. Would love to do another weekend duty(maybe saturday instead), as i love playing the Xbox. It seems that me keeping away from games for quite a period has suddenly unleased the gaming monster in me on Sunday. Maybe should get myself one of those cool black boxes.

On top of that, morale was high in my branch for the past two days. We had BK for lunch on Monday and KFC on Tuesday. Contemplating to chiong all the fast food outlets we can get our hands on for the rest of the week to make the record. Work load was relatively low, there are more pple in the branch(1 new clerk just came in) makin in more happending.

In the TODAY paper today, an article called "Who needs marriage" caught my eye. Its about the problem abt rising divorce rates, men getting more than a woman out of marriage, ie to a man she is a free maid, cook, child bearer and sex partner. To a woman? I dunno. Men cheating on their wives and committing adultery and the answer to those, cohabitation or polygamy. Settling together with no strings attached. One thing that really caught my eye was something called the cohabitation contract. Under it, the male isn't expected to care for his offspring. Society instead should ENABLE a woman to care for herself, providing her with housing benefits, maid benefits, etc etc. such that she can take care of her child on her own. Which means that in simple terms, guy sees girl. Guy and girl make friends, Guy and girl have interest in each other. Guys and girl "connects". Guy literally F***s Off. Wah la! Child is born. If guy, he'll turn out straight. If girl, chances of her turning lesbian, high(according to science, don't ask me why) Didn't noe whether those who came up with the idea of the cohabitation contract thought of the repercussions it might cause to society. What happened to the good old principles of loyalty and trust? Honoring the comittement? To me, the most important thing in a marriage is honoring the two words "i do" to the whole load of things the pastor said like "love her till ya death, take gd care of her blahh blah blah....." . So let's say the government ask all Singaporeans to choose between the "cohabitation contract" thing, and normal marriage thing in a survey and the results will determine whether it gets implemented. Which side on it will you be?Just some food for thought:)

The Way Things Work~

In the outside world, as in refering to world outside army(pardon me for the small world im in), money and profit runs things. For example, if you need help to create servers in your office and make everything IT based, hire the computer IT professionals, they will put in their heart and soul for the job. Why? Simply because if they don't do a gd job, u can sack them and hire other computer IT specialists who are waiting in line. If you need to print loads of brochures maybe for advertising purposes, go to the printing professionals and they'll do the job Swee swee for you, suited to your preference. Why? Simply because you can always choose to go to another printing company. The motivation them is profit making, earning money, so that their business can survive.

In the inside world( i should think that most of you should noe what it is), it is the opposite. If you call for a meeting, chances are, most of the pple you call will not come for your meeting. Instead, they will send representatives who will most probably listen to your ramblings for as long as you take and everything will come out the other ear and taken to be swept under the carpet(im exaggerating). i hear that outside if u call for a meeting and u don't attend it, it's your own problem as what is discussed in the meeting will be materialised, so if u weren't there you have no say in the output. Motivation factor? Maybe its the fear of getting "punished" by personnel of higher ranks. Maybe its the wanting to "score points". I dunno, but one thing is certain. In the army, your job is secure. There is no fear of losing your job. There is also no incentive to do extra. So what's the point? What is the point?

Im doing Duty this Sunday. Feels a bit wierd since i've not done duty for a very long time. First time doing kena weekend. Actually not i kena, its i swop with a friend. DOn't say i stupid first ah. Its cos this Sunday its his birthday, and he can't find anyone else to swop with him. Now don't say i very honorable ah. I mean, if im in his shoes, i will certainly feel like shit if im doing duty on my birthday. Birthday suppose to have off one leh, now no off some more kena duty. ALAMAK!Yeah, so that's why i took over loh. Anyway he agreed to do a weekend duty for me some time later if i kena one. So its fair trade, and that's only if i kena one weekend duty. But quite impossible, honestly, since im in the branch that plans duty, most prob won't kena. That's the way things work wat...hor? Sorry ah, suddenly feel very singaporean, so use a bit of singrish here okie? Gd.

Monday Blues~

Today i really felt the full impact of Monday Blues. Draggin' my feet to work, not bothering to wear my contact lens, feeling flu-ish, sitting down on my chair staring at my screen for new mails that never came in. My mind totally somewhere else, everywhere else except work. Just didn't have the mood.....Like now...my mind is not with writing this blog. Its with chatting with Alvin, Dennis and Weijian, James on MSN. So many things to do, so little time. So many new things to learn, so little time. So many new pple to meet, so little time. Time and tide waits for no man. Hence, every hour, every min, every second, is so precious. God sent us down to earth for a purpose. Find that purpose, fufil it, and be fulfilled.

TGIF~

Manchester United won 3-0 against Debrecen last night, to win 6-0 on aggregate to proceed to the group stages of the Champions League. In my humble opinion, they were anything but great. No flowing attack and looked shaky in defence. Probably cos they didn't play pple like park, keano, scholes and rooney. Nevertheless, they won. Its the results that count don't it? And great teams get results with sloppy play :)

Talking about producing results, how can one not see the difference between someone not producing results and someone producing loads of results? Favouritism blinds the judgemental sight of a person. The implications hurt the morale of the pple, and allow the "favourite" strut arnd, "act big". The attitude and laziness of one of my guys just frustrated me the entire week. If not for my cool headedness i would have told him " Eh wtf, you can't even settle a simple task within a deadline given, you go take 3 extra duties."

Duties...Recently i felt an urge to do anything that anyone task me to do in my unit. Maybe its a post Principle Staff Officer job syndrome. I even volunteered to take over 1 weekend duty for my other fellow officer, Lt Shawn, as it fell on his birthday. Honorable? or Foolish? Negative thinking aside, i would choose to think of the former.

The Car~
Daihatsu Copen. Totally fell in love with it when i first saw it on 8 days.( Sorry ah, might be a bit slow, i don't really read car magazines.) For me, a car must possess 3 qualities. Looks, fuel consumption, price. This car certainly blows me away. Has killer looks, smooth and sleek. Fuel consumption wise, u can't really complain for a car that runs 18km per litre. This baby's got a 659cc capacity, around the same as the small little subaru vivio that my family owns. So efficient. So cool. So sweet. Pricewise, i wouldn't know. As the authorized dealer for daihatsu, Sin Tien Seng does not seem to bring in this car. I wouldn't buy a car that falls out of the $70,000 mark. It just doesn't seem logical. The more expensive the car, road tax would be more expensieve, maintenance would be more expensive, at least for the changing of tires. A bigger tire costs more ya noe. The amount spent on petrol will be more, exaggerated with the increase in oil prices. What else, would insurance coverage be more expensive? i dunno. To me, the car is a mode of transport. If it can bring you from one point to another point, with added convenience of time and flexibility compared to public transport, and with added safety and protection compared to motorcycles, it is sufficient. Why spend so much? All in all, the car is a liability, not an asset. Something reasonable would suffice :)

New Look~

How's my new look? I took this blog template from blogskins.com, after much effort spent browsing the web and the site for so many templates. Finally got one that i liked. There's still some touching up here and there, but i guess i'll just put it up first!:)

Anyway this week so far has been very fun and relaxed! My S1 is back and now at least there is a certain direction and authority in our branch. Unlike when i was leading, aimless and insecure. Since her return, i have moved out of her office, which i felt was a great barrier from me and the rest of the clerks. Now I have shifted to sit outside with the clerks, feeling more at ease and also more "re4 nao4 and qi4 fen4". Moreover, i'll have lesser mail in the future since she's back! that's great news so my account won't keep crashing anymore. My future within the branch is still shady at the moment. Although my Commanding Officer wants to keep me, I have to go someplace else if there's the calling. My job is done at 3 DMSB. It is finished.Can channel more effort and time to AHM training now. Ran 15km on Tuesday, in 1 hour 10 mins. Feeling great and in better shape. All i have to do now is to maintain my training pace for AHM in 11 Sep and i can get my 3 days off, for completing AHM in under 2hrs 45 min. Yay!!

The Weekend~

It was largely aching due to the 17km run i had on Friday. The run, was super mental, super shaq, super long. The last time i ran prior to this run was like a week ago, and only 11km. By army standards, there's always "progressive training" and stuff so by right, i am not supposed to run 17km. But, it wouldn't make any sense to run 10km, cos the conducting only planned for 10km and 17km. So i threw every damn army training safety regulations out of the window, and took the "by left" route. It was a painful, excruciating run, but satisfying. Its all abt going the distance, believing in urself that u can do it, then JUST do it. Its been quite a while since i've tested my physical limits, by the fact that im not "chiong sua-ing" anymore. I kinda miss chiong sua days, chionging with my fellow section and pl mates, fighting the fight together, going through shit together, surviving it together.

Met RJBT on Sat night. Roy, Jasmine, Jeannie, Terence Tan & Wu, Weipin, Mr Wong, and myself turned up. Had fun catching up with Jeannie and the Wu Ge ge, not having the opportunity to meet them for quite a while. One in CHeena, one too busy with gf( but at least took this time to meet up, unlike someone else..).

Sunday, still had remnants of the muscle ache from the Friday run. Really appreciated the Pastor's sermon on the Parable of the good samaritan. Key takeaway: Having compassion for another fellow person, driven by the person's need, not his worth. And putting compassion into an act, as action speaks louder than words, and that is kindness. Kindness is the act of compassion. Don't worry, slowly digest if u r trying to catch wat i said. Anyway, didn't really do much after church. Just went to IKEA to do some shopping, then home to DIY the IKEA stuff, then tried to get some beat going on the drums, then played some songs on my guitar, then watching stealth, and now blogging. It would be an interesting week ahead, with more Army Half Marathon training to go, and SSC badminton tournament ongoing, plus work committement. Anyway, just hope that the week ahead would be a smashing one!

'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind'; and, 'Love your neighbor as yourself.

Love Languages~

Today, i attended a welfare and wellness seminar organized by SAF's personal care centre, the welfare arm of the SAF. Well, usually when one of these courses appeared in my mailbox, asking me to apply and go for it, i would usually just delete the mail. There's a misconception among alot of pple that seminars are useless, blah blah blah, decreases short term productivity and work ouput. However, the reason why i signed up for this seminar was ya noe, National day blues, don't feel like going to work. Hey! there's a half day seminar to attend! Just sign up man.
Never did i noe that i was going to learn so much in the seminar, and take away valuable points and experiences.....

One of the distinguished speaker that spoke, Dr Tan Khian Seng, talked abt Mending Relationships and Healing Hearts. He talked about love languages and how different pple give and receive different love languages, and that's there's misunderstanding, and that's how there's broken relationships. First, there's Act of Service, someone whose actions show how much he loves his/her significant other. Actions like cleaning the house, making sure that he/she has everything needed, cooking a meal for he/her etc etc. Then there's Quality time. Some pple sacrifice their time for one another, Spending quality time with each other, enjoying the sunrrise or sunset, or even drinking coffee together, doing a favourite activity together. Next, Physical Closeness. The physical presence of the other person is important. He/She must feel his/her touch. A hug or a kiss, cuddling together is an expression of love. Gifts giving. Some pple give gifts as an act of love. Husbands give wives diamond rings, flowers. Wife give husband...eh..i dunno. ahaha. Lastly, there's Words of encouragement. Words that heal, words that touch the heart of the person, words that motivates, words that revives, words of love.

Which of the 5 love languages do you give?
Which of the 5 do you wish to receive?

3 R's

From the environmentalist point of view, its recycle, reduce and reuse.
From the army chao keng-er point of view, its rest, relax and recreation.
From the Mancherster United fan point of view, it Ronaldo, Rooney and Ruud.

Man Utd 3 Debrecen 0

Its the first match of the season and things are looking up for man utd. Seriously can't wait to see them play especially the news players. Especially the Park man. Pple say that the reason why he was bought was to sell shirts. I seriously dunno. But someone who can score goals against a team like AC milan has to have certain quality.Anyway, back to the point. On Sunday if anyone caught the Charity Shield on ESPN, you would have to agree with me that the standard of football played that day was trememdous. Chelsea looked focused in their tactics and held a very gd defence against a flowy arsenal team, with passes so sharp they can cut right through the goal netting. So sharp and flowy it seems almost....robotic, rehearsed. After that match i seriously thought to myself whether Man Utd can match up to that kind of standard. It seems that my confidence in them has dropped a little after disappointment after disappointment. We'll just have to wait and see....we shall wait and see......

National Day~

Its the 40th birthday of our nation. Somehow this year's National day parade wasn't so grand and so impressive. The mobile column was somewhat, imo slow(literally) and a little boring. I think one reason is probably because im actually in the army. So you noe what is happening during the parade and can actually become critics, like saying whether they perform their drills to the highest standard or not, whether they swing their arms together etc. The mobile column leh, can name abt 3/4 of the vehicles there. Seen them in action, not when they are slowly rolling past a stand of spectators. how wonderful.

Had another class gathering today at ZhiJun's house. Had a great time chatting with my RJ Class mates. Those at the table were mainly Woonded, Charles, Shihao, Shuen, Justine, Yanwei, Waihan and I. We had great laughs talking abt our good ol' RJ days, how we were such a problematic class, S06C. 6C, pronounced sek si in cantonese means "eat shit" I remember quite a few teachers telling us abt the tradition that S06C was always the problematic class, etc etc. Nevertheless, we had our fun, our laughter, and we were a unique class filled with people of different personalities. Meeting up with good ol' classmates from the gd ol' days really brought back alot of happinness and gd memories which were stored safely at the back of my head. Laughing at Zhi Jun in his family potrait, at charles for rocking in the chair when he laughs last time when Mrs Veluri(GP teacher) used so many pompous words to scold us which caused her to storm out of the class, at my attempt for corniness and lame-ness and a whole load of other things. Realli, the time that we spend chatting through the night realli made my evening. Thanks guys:)

Never a trial that He is not there,

Never a burden that He does not bear;

Never a sorrow that He does not share—

Moment by moment, I'm under His care. —Whittle

When we put our cares in God's hands, He puts His peace in our heart.

Heavy Heart~

From work problems, to family problems, to friendship problems, to relationship problems, to health problems. This whole week was a long and dreadful one. Besides the fact that 1 guy has just officially went AWOL from my branch, under my care, i get the impression that what i have been doing is not appreciated. From the start, trying my best to learn as fast as possible things to do with HR, being thrown into it suddenly without any prerequisites whatsoever. And getting my ass hammered from everywhere, anywhere. There just isn't any motivation for me to carry on working as hard as i used to. The previous motivation was "trying to make a difference." Trying not to let S1 branch be a let down to the bn, as it was previously. Trying to raise the standards, trying to get things sorted out.Try....is the key word. Motivation does wonders to a person. Right now, im just waiting for my S1 to come back and resume responsibility, responsibility that a captain should shoulder, not a 2LT. Finally, after these 3 months of hectic schedules and work loads, i can take a breather. Or at least i hope....

In da house, tempers flare easily as everyone is putting their best effort to sort issues out for the new house. Family members are getting agitated more easily. Me also being one of the culprit. Not only at home, but with friends and colleagues as well. My mum and dad are putting in their effort to make sure that everything's "ship ship" in da house. With contractors making mistakes, aircon pple telling her no stock of aircon, dad getting on her nerves by asking her why this why that, no wonder voices get raised. Hai....i don't like arguments. I like peace. I shun away from loud voices, cower back to my cave.....

The friend to share all of my troubles, all my sorrows, all of my happiness, all of my joy. and all of his/hers. Recently, i have been meeting the same few friends unconciously. Whether in camp or outside, we have been meeting on a regular basis. Even when there is no time. We'll still make time to meet each other. To tok kok. Hongyuan and Seng are the two friends i have caught up the most since we parted during our OCS days. Dunno why, just feel very comfortable talking to them, sharing my tots, discuss issues. Seng, is one big guy with a heart of gold. Honestly, i haven't met anyone like Seng. He is definitely on of a kind. Today saw him pat a Wrnt Officer on the back..Rather surprised...Hongyuan, on the other hand, is a soft spoken, blur, Wols guy. FUn to make fun of him, and gd company as well.....

I don't noe how to define relationship problems. But is not having a relationship a relationship problem? Technically no. But...i think it is a problem because its just not right... I feel that there's a vaccuum waiting to be filled up in my life. This empty space, is causing disequilibrium in the rest of my life. You noe, like a piece of a puzzle waiting to be put into place. It just doesn't feel normal....

This week, the worst of my sore throat, block nose, flu has hit me. Feel super sianz the whole week. Makes waking up in the morning feels like a drag. Feel super cold in the air con. Muscle aches....not being able to think properly...blah blah blah....Need to see a doc soon...Haiz...

FOP today was just simpy wonderful. I went there expecting a great worship by hillsong and delirious, and listening to a great sermon. i got that, and more. When hillsongs sang the first song, i started to tear uncontrollably. I could sense God's almighty presence in me. i teared and teared for the next two songs. During this period, i just praised god with all heart and soul. God has lifted my heavy heart and took my worries and issues away. I came out of FOP feeling 101%. This is my mini testimonial of God's greatness and what he has done for me in my life.

House Movers~

Weekday job, a humble servant of the SAF. Weekend Job, full time house mover~ At least for the past few days and maybe for the next weekend as well. Sofas, chairs, tables, wadrobes, boxes(loads of it), vases, big stuff, small stuff, puny stuff. You name it, i've moved it. I think i moved so much stuff that i have gained sufficient experience points(Machiam sound like some computer game) to become a qualified mover. No problem folks. Need a helping hand? Feel free to call me anytime, anywhere, anyhow. Nevertheless, im glad that in all these busy times, still manage to find time to go for sonic fest. Wah kau eh...on sat night the music by sonic flood was so loud, my ears hurt for a moment. I literally drowned(hehe) in the music.

We also managed to call professional house movers to move the realli realli biggy stuff. stuff that my dad and i can't handle. They were pple from helping hand, an organization which helps convicts get back to the proper track of life. These pple were the real professionals, moved things like lightning. Their teamwork was tremendous. You can see through their work how they work together, how they have that sense of each other, how they have the brotherhood-ness. These pple might be pai kia's, ang kong kia's or watever kia's before. One thing these pple have that we(referring to pple of better education) don't is a sense of brotherhood, strong friendship bonding. They are the kind of pple who will die for you. The kind who will bleed for you. When i was in commanders' school in the army, namely SISPEC and OCS, my instructors used to tell me that although ur men all pai kias and all got ang kong, and they may seem to have many problems or cause alot of trouble, IF u can gain their respect as their leader, as their brother, they will fight for you in the battlefield. They will die for u. As the preacher said yesterday during service, " Wasting it for Jesus." Will you waste it for someone, when there is a need to? Will you leave everything behind for that someone? Will you die for someone?........

Barriers~

Everyday we either create barriers, run into barriers, or erect barriers, In all aspects of our lives. Be it physical, emotional, personal, psycological, or spiritual barriers. Be it the gate of a building, a door slammed shut in our face, the stamina we have which restricts the distance we can run, the difficulty to convey a simple msg to a a certain someone, to think the way we should think, or to have that perfect relationship with GOD. We are facing barriers constantly. Constantly we are fighting the barriers, if there is one, with the strength that we can muster. Sometimes we overcome, sometimes we don't. Sometimes..... Somewhere in Jurong Camp, 3 DSMB S1 branch, someone is fighting to break down the barrier between officers and his men. That psycological barrier which keeps the men from interacting too much with the officer. The psycological barrier which keeps the officer from interacting with his men. That someone, is on the verge of breaking the barrier which seperates each other from each side of his own wall. On the other hand, a barrier is emerging elsewhere. Somewhere in Ayer Rajah Camp. The same someone is fighting the strong emergence of a barrier where once everyone were roaming freely on the plains, interacting with one another. The barrier is getting stronger. The someone is losing the fight. His strength is not sufficient. He is now seperated from the rest by a wall. A wall that can only be broken from both sides......

This week is one fast paced week with me sleeping at like average of 12am...(that is very late in my terms) Cos of the packing and the busy schedule that i have this week. So happy that i met with Seng and Uncle Hong yesterday, although it was our 2nd meeting in 3 weeks, we had alot to talk abt. Something Ah Seng said struck me yesterday, about "hi-bye" friends. I did a little self reflection yesterday and realised that i have quite a lot of "hi-bye" friends. Maybe because i have erected a barrier around my self unconciously, unknowingly........maybe... Then today leh, got sonic fest:) Heard planetshakers live first hand. The music and worship was awesome. Will be going down tomolo and sat again to catch their worship. Meanwhile, still busy shifting house and this weekend will be the milestone weekends as i will actually be staying in my new house from this weekend onwards!! So excited abt it:)

By the blink of an eye, its Aug. Its been 4 months since i've commissioned as an officer. One and a half more week before my S1 comes back from maternity leave. It means time to step down, and take responsibilities of a normal 2LT. NO more stand in S1. The experience was definitely fun and enriching. However since now my S1 will be coming back....means more arrows will be shooting. I did the shooting when she was not arnd. Now, i'll be one of her targets.

A Different Perspective~


Another one of those Sats burnt~ dunno how long this will continue. Shifting house is a painful process. Especially with those DIY stuff. My dad and i have tasked ourselves to paint our new house. Its painted already, we just wanna add a finishing touch cos the developer obviously chao keng and left it in an unpleasant state. Trust me, painting A house interior and exterior is not an easy task...especially when there's only two pple, and so 2 days over the weekend to do it. Besides, that, there's drilling for fitting all those cheap and good IKEA furniture and accessories that we bought. Absolutely fantastic:) PLus, there's the moving of all our current furniture from our new house to our old one. Well, thinking from one point of view, its shitty sai kang. From another, fun workout to build muscles and stay in shape:)

I drove a van today, and i was entirely excited to drive it. Because firstly it was a different vehicle apart from those i usually drive. Secondly because its big!! I feel like im the king (tortoise) of the road when i drive it. Thirdly, its the 3rd stick vehicle that i have driven so far. Im fascinated with stick vehicles....the changing of gears just make driving so much more fun, the ability to control the vehicle, just as you want it to. Total control. My mum always said that for manual cars u control the car. For auto, the car controls you. Drivers should noe what i am talking abt here. I personally find it true.~

My next target, driving a motorcycle. Unfortunately, i can only learn when im 21. Cos officially when one is 21, they are absolutely free to decide on thier own religion, not restricted from their parents objections. I guess the rules for other things should be applicable as well.:)

Those who are patient enough to read my post, i thank you and congratulate you!!...be it reading it with a mirror or...i dunno how else u can read it?!~...How abt this for a different perspective?:)